Idle Hands

Today I'm rocking out to some Rob Zombie and White Zombie. I love "More Human Than Human." I won't bother with the lyrics here because they don't matter that much. The best things in that song are the guitar and the drums. You just have to hear it.

I've been a little somber lately cause all my buds went home for the holidays and I feel lonely. I've kind of run out of things to do on my own. Yesterday I just stayed home and played Final Fantasy on my game boy. ( I know, a gameboy? at my age? But I can't afford a computer so I bought it as something of a consolation.) I really should get a temp job or something, just to keep me occupied. I'm thinking of doing some volunteer work at a soup kitchen or something. I need something to do or I'm gonna go nuts. The other day I went out, ran down 15 blocks, and then walked home again just because I was so full of energy I needed to exaust myself.

Then again, I am crazy, so maybe that's normal for me. :p

Today is Not so Good.

I've been feeling lonely lately. I guess my biggest fear is not being loved by anyone, and today I'm just not feeling the love. My loneliness may be being increased by the closeness of the holidays. It sucks for me because all my friends leave to go home for Christmas, while I just sort of wander around San Jose, looking for something to do.

I hate Christmas, Bah Humbug! :(

The Crazy People Like Me!

Yeah! Getting lots a positive comments! I feel special. I bask in the glow of random peoples attention!

I just got A Perfect Circles "Thirteenth Step." I'm listening to "The Nurse Who Loved Me." I think it's about a guy in a nuthouse who's falling in love with the nurse who gives him his medication. It kicks ass!

"The Nurse Who Loved Me"

Say hello to the rug's topography

It holds quite a lot of interest with your face down on it

Say hello to the shrinking in your head

You can't see it but you know its there so don't neglect it

I'm taking her home with me, all dressed in white

She's got everything I need

pharmacy keys

She's falling hard for me

I can see it in her eyes

She acts just like a nurse, with all the other guys

Say hello to all the apples on the ground

They were once in your eyes but you sneezed them out while sleeping

Say hello to everything you've left behind

It's even more a part of your life now that you can't touch it

I'm taking her home with me, all dressed in white

She's got everything I need

some pills in a little cup

She's falling hard for me

I can see it in her eyes

She acts just like a nurse, with all the other guys

Say hello to the rugs topography...

It's crazy, like me!

Eating Healthy Today

In celebration of my new License, I had an Ice Cream cone of Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey in a fudge dipped cone that had peanuts sprinkled on it. Yummy!

My Blogs Are Tiny Creatures!

Why do I tend to write such short blogs? No one has asked me this, but I like to talk about stuff no one cares about anyway. The answers simple. I get bored reading blogs that seem unnecessarily long, I don't want to bore you, so I tend to write short blogs, full of energy. Unlike this hugely boooring one. :)

Another Comment!!

Stewey thinks I'm interesting, I'm ecstatic!
I think I've found nirvana!
I'm going to wet myself right now!!!
(just kidding about wetting myself, really)

FOOLS!!!!

I just passed the driving test today. After only four driving lessons the fools gave me a license to kill! (oops... I mean, drive :) ). So I just thought I'd warn you all. You might not want to get on the road as much, at least not in San Jose.

I'm so happy :) :) :) WOOOOHOOOO!!! :p

See! I AM special!!

Let me preface this by saying these are the results of a personality test I took at www.Tickle.com.

Keegan, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Inspirational

You inspire others around you with your creative energy and thirst for new experiences. You are exceptionally curious and aren't afraid of learning new things — which is probably because you tend to focus on the potential positive outcome of any experience rather than dwelling on the potential negatives. You are a true explorer in the word. You want to understand and experience it all, and you're especially open to new feelings and ideas. Compared to others who are open, you are unusually imaginative. Only 1.8% are unusually appreciative of art and beauty. Only 2.1% are unusually accepting of their own and others feelings. Only 6.0% are unusually interested in having new and unusual experiences. Only 2.1% are unusually curious, with a broad range of interests. Only 2.3% are unusually flexible in their thinking. Only 6.5% are unusually imaginative. Only 1.8% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.

Someone Read My Blog!

Hey, someone read MY blog. AND they left a comment. It was even a positive comment. I feel special now :) This is sooo cool. I feel like a schoolboy. WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!

New Stupid Web Page

You may notice the link to my stupid web page. It is stupid. I'm not joking. You won't like it. The template sucks (I REALLY need to get my own computer) and there's really nothing in it. It sucks.
Enjoy :)

Worries

I sometimes worry that I will never be able to find someone that is a good fit for me. I always seem to have difficulty getting close to people. I'm not sure what I can do about it, if anything. So right now I'm sitting here, apprehensive about the coming month of unemployment, worried about whether I'll pass my driving test, worried that I may not be able to even schedule a driving test for the next two weeks becuase of the holidays, worried that I won't have my driver's license in time to apply for the job I need, worried that I will never find someone I can love who love's me, worried, worried, worried.
Damn, am I stressed.

Driving

Today I had my first driving lesson. It went well, no one died. In fact, it was a breeze. In fact, I use the phrase 'In fact' all too often (but that's another blog).
The reason I'm suddenly learning to drive at the age of 22, despite never having had the inclination before in my life, has to do with my job. My position is being changed from a part-time, seasonal position, to a full-time, permanent position. 'Great!' you say 'that spells PROMOTION!!! WOOOOHOOO!!'

Problem:
I'm not being promoted, the position is being promoted.
In order to qualify for this new position, I need to have a driver's license.
This means:
If I do not have my driver's license by January 3rd, I may not have a job.

The plus side is that my boss really wants me for this position and has actually convinced His boss to hold it open for me that long.
So now the balls in my court.
Let's hope I score.

Dreams1

I had a crazy dream a while back. I was in my backyard with my mother. I heard this high-pitched screeching noise. I heard my mom scream "OH MY GOD!! I NEVER THOUGHT THEY'D ACTUALLY DO IT!!" I turned at the sound of a horrendous explosion, slowly filling with fear, to see a mushroom cloud forming. I knew, in the way you just know things in dreams, that it was a nuclear bomb. I knew that just the fact that I could see it meant that I was dead, I could run as fast as light and I'd still be dead. In fact, I was already dead. I ran anyway, knowing I was going to die, knowing it was a futile attempt to escape. There was nowhere I could hide. I was dead.

It scared the shit out of me

What me worry?

I worried for awhile about putting my personal thoughts on the net, then I realized no one reads my shit anyway.

Opinions are like. . .

When I first began this particular blog I intended it to be something where I could tell you all my opinion on everything. You can tell by the first blog I have on this site. The problem is that, while I have many strong opinions, I don't really give a shit about expressing them.
What it comes down to is that an opinion is just that, an opinion. Even the opinions of wonderful people like me are often wrong or misguided. When we give our opinions or listen to the opinions of others we're usually looking for people who share our own opinions. Finding another person who believes as we do makes us feel more correct and justified, as if two people who believed the same wrong thing could become right because they found a third who believed it as well.
There are over 5,000,000,000 people in the world (that's an actual fact, not my opinion), I garuantee that, no matter how stupid your opinion may be, you can find another moron out there who shares it.
So instead of an opinion blog, I guess I'll make this more an online journal.
Anyway, that's my opinion. :)